Eh, whateva’

Just a few minutes ago, I asked myself the following questions: Why do I need a blog to use as a public personal diary? Couldn’t I just write contemplations and such in Microsoft Word? What is my motivation for posting on a public blog? Honestly, I don’t have an answer. I have some theories, though:

1. Is it that I like the possibility of receiving feedback on my posts? I didn’t intend this to be a socially active blog, and I still don’t, yet I leave people the option of commenting on my thoughts. Deep down inside, I probably want people to speak what they think about me, my issues, and my random opinions. Am I looking for online acceptance? Hardly, but I still don’t know my true motives for keeping this public.

 2. Actually, that’s about the only theory I have.

Usually when I write for blogs/websites, I’m writing for (what I perceive to be) an audience. Therefore, I’m overly sarcastic, I exaggerate everything, and I’m cynical. I guess I’m kind of like a horrible comedian (*cough -Carlos Mencia- cough cough*). Although the purpose of this blog isn’t to appeal to an “audience”, I can’t help but think people read this, thus I’m always tempted to sugarcoat my posts. AAHHH! It’s strange…
Sometimes (when I write for this blog) I think I’m not as honest as I should be, mainly because I think my parents will eventually find this. If I was completely honest, I could lose what little trust-points I’ve scored with my parents, and frankly, I need them.

Oh well. For the most part, I’ll let everything I need to let out…out. Writing on this blog is slightly therapeutic, and I’ve heard you shouldn’t hold anything inside while engaging in a therapy session. Eh, whateva’!